thursday

time just flew by at work.
it was so great, cause sometimes it kills you if you have to wait so long...
didn't do anything else. just work and a little tv!
called a friend: dave. meet him and some other friends tomorrow!
excited!
on saturday i will meet my best friend to talk to her about what happend and how i feel
and what i intend to do next!
and also on saturday i will go to see my new apartment! juhu!
i am soooooo excited!

but still no roommate!
i have faith in god, and he will send me someone!

now: really sleepy!!!
good night!

midsweek

i am still looking for a roommate.
right now i am calling friends from highschool but all seem to have a room already.
i am too late. and all because my best friend decides not to move in.
right out of the blue. i mean thats pretty rare. these thoughts that
maybe she will get worse in school or that she won't have enough time for practising the
piano; all these thoughts come now. ??? two weeks before we could live our dream.
i don't believe that. she must have thought about these things or at least must have noticed,
that maybe it is too early for her to move out.
and i am lost...
still looking for a roommate and working at the same time.
ok i am making money and i am not wasting....
i mean who goes twice abroad in one vacation when you know you want to move at the end of summer? who does that?
moving costs money. everybody knows that!

i am pretty pissed right now.
because i don't know what to do. i don't want to take a roommate just because i need the money.
the apartment has only two rooms, so if something doesn't work out...

and all just because of her.
i am not mad at her because she dumbed me; i am mad at her because she dumbed me two weeks
before we wanted to move...
there is not a lot of time left.
most of the students already have their rooms...
she had never thought of that...

she doesn't think about how i feel or what her decision meant to me and all the results that come from that.
but she doesn't see them, she doesn't get to know what it means to have no time to
think about things and to wait until things work out.
there is no time!!!

but all in all it will help me to grow up. there are always experiences to make. and not always nice ones.

but something positive in the end: two letters came today from my last university.
now there is one still to come and it can go on to the next step!!!

go to bed now. tired. as always.

new day

i am still pretty 'durch den wind', which means that there are still things that are going through my mind and it will take a lot of time to get over it.
but i should not look back. my future is more important.
today i got the news that i can move in the apartment at october the first!

juhu!
so right now i am looking for a new roommate.
i asked two girls i know from highschool. maybe one of them is going to be
my new roommate!
i am very tired today, so i am going to bed.
good night!

the worst day in my life till today

this monday is a black one!!!!!

at first i had two really good news. i will get my papers from the sport's institute.
and my uncle said that i can move into his apartment during october!

then i called my best friend with who i wanted to move in together and she told me
that maybe it won't work, because her dad said that it would cost too much money
and he won't be able to support her!
but he knew that we wanted to move in together since one year. and now 3 weeks before
our dream will come true, he doesn't want her to go!
i guess he ruined everything!
right now i am so sad, nobody can understand!
one part of my soul just died. cause if my friend and me are not moving in together our friendshuip will be different.
we always did things together, like singing in a gospelchoir or learning how to play the trombone!

but now she will graduate next year (this schoolyear) and after that she will try to get into musician school to became a teacher for piano. so there are no things that we still share.
we now have completly different lives.
the only thing that would have held our close friendschip so close would be sharing an apartment.
and i guess because of her dad that will never going to happen.

it was so out of the blue i still cannot believe it!!!

one of my dreams is just gone. forever.

right now i need to go on with live. i cannot look back. i cannot wait again for ;i don't know how long; just to see if her dad makes up his mind again.

so i guess i need to look for another roommate!

i hope tomorrow will be better!

sunday

we had wonderful sunny weather today.
i relaxed outseide in the sun...

and i didn't tidy up my room again and i know i will
not di it tomorrow because i will come home from work and
i will be very tired!! and my whole body will hurt.
but i did some ironing for my mom.
and i helped my dad to make the swimplan for his school.
so i did something today and i did not only ly in the sun! :)
so tomorrow is work and i don't want to go... :(
but i have to! well i want to earn some money for my university year abroad!

so good night everyone....

saturday

hi ho!!
on saturday i was in tübingen, giving my keys back.
i saw all my old roommates again. this was so much fun!!!
paddy, who is my best mate from university, and i had wonderfull ice-cream.
it was sooooo good. and like a miracle i didn't gain any wight this morning. juhu!

as soon as i have the pictures on my computer i will post a few!
so i had a great time there, but it was also very sad!!!!
i had to say good bye. i mean i will see them when they come to visit me or i will visit
them. but it is not the same as to live with them and having the opprtunity to see them every day.
now all my stuff is here with me in my room or in th guestroom and it is real huge mess!
and i tried to tidy up but i lost the fight....

but i will try again!!!

almost weekend

last day of the week!

i am so glad that this week is over.
i had a lot of stress!
work was ok but a little boring.
i mean this is not the coolest job in the world but i am earning
money for my next trip to canada or the states.

so tomorrow i need to drive to tübingen to give back my
keys to my old apartment. and i want to see old friends again.

so i hope that i can move to my new apartment in a few weeks.
and till that day comes i am living with my family again!

so i got news from the university today.
everything is going to work out, but it will take time, so i
need to be very patient...

to everybody who wants to transfer to a different university:
you need to get all information about papers you will need befor you apply!!!!
if not you won't have a lot of time to get them...

talk soon

My first day

i just found out about blogger.com!
omg! that is so fantastic!
ok. i am german but i am trying to write in english,
so that more people can read this and communicate with me....

so i am saying hello to the world wide web!!!!!

right now i am trying to transfer from one university to another and
this is so tireing because everybody needs something else!
i hate this administration stuff!!!!

but whatever: life is cool!!!!

my american friend Lizzy was here in Freiburg to visit me. but she
just left to go to vienna for a year doing au-pair!
i am already missing her!
lizzy if you read this: i want you to have fun!!!
enjoy life!

right now i am so tired that i will go to bed.
but tomorrow there will be more news!!!!